Three years ago, in 2016, following my strategy to live “the last year of my life” I experienced one of the most intense and sacred experiences I’ve ever lived. Trying Bufo Alvarius Toad, also known as “the toad of the dawn” or “the DMT Toad.” Then, in 2017 I went through the ceremony again, as I believe the second time you know what you are facing, and have gained experience to go deeper and surrender.
How was the first experience with the 5MeO-DMT
In those moments, I recall, I didn’t feel like I could explain to you from the beginning to the end because I couldn’t tell you where the opening was and where the ending was. I was assimilating and digesting everything that happened in only 15 limited but so deep and endless minutes. Something incredibly dreamlike, a connection with everything that I’ve never felt until back then (and until now), keeping in mind I’ve already experienced a lot, this had even gone beyond my experience with ayahuasca, due to the intensity and immediacy.
This is what I can tell you now, in a few minutes, the light goes out, and everything disappears, then you wake up. In that space of time, you remain in your subconscious, that’s where everything happens.
I’m rethinking and giving some order to what happened so that I can understand the essence. I will use this post to put you in context about my first and second Bufo Alvarius Toad and 5-meO-DMT experience.
Bufo Alvarius Toad – Description
As described and explained to me: breathing 5-MeO-DMT – a neurotransmitter molecule from the glands of Bufo Alvarius, a toad that lives in the desert of Sonora (Mexico) – is one of the most profound experiences, that a human being can get on this planet at any level: physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. And I must say that has some existential truth in the statement.
The process and explanation beyond the Bufo Alvarius Toad / 5MeO-DMT
The glands of the Bufo Alvarius Toad produce a latex called Bufotenine. It should be noted that the toad does not get harmed during the process. The latex is extracted from your glands and dried. “Medicine” (as practitioners and experts in the field call it) is inhaled in a sacred ceremony. Once inside, the body transforms the “o-methyl-bufotenine” into 5meO-DMT. Getting it to be easily absorbable and able to cross the blood barrier of the brain, reaching the brain instantaneously.
This unique molecule is activated in specific states such as birth, death, and sleep. It breaks the chemical filters that the human mind uses to prevent a continuous state of perception, awakening and complete consciousness. These filters are necessary for our day to day, as they help us to function in this three-dimensional reality, limited by space and time.
As soon as we open those filters, it seems like we’re finally able to put our ego to sleep and then enter a state of deep meditation, that means we would be able to access the superconscious part of our mind, our true nature? I’m not the one to affirm it, the only thing I can do is to question it until one day I get there if I get there.
There are several sources where you can find information about the Bufo Alvarius Toad, 5meO-DMT, the ritual and everything that they entail. One is “El Sapo del Amanecer” by Octavio Retting and another “The Tryptamine Palace” by James Oroc (co-founder of Burning Man and one of the first to go on this trip). You can also find extended information in this video.
I delved deeper into the reason for this experiment and its more immediate results. Also, I recorded a video for sharing the learnings with more perspective.
I felt air, light, as if I were 30 kilograms lighter, every millimeter of my body was aligned, like my mind and spirit. Emotionally, it was an explosion of feelings that I still don’t know how to order or explain.
A sacred experience
It’s indeed a life experience. It was partly thanks to my friend Nacho Vidal; I tried 5MeO-DMT through a latex from the Bufo Alvarius Toad gland. The first ceremony was in Ibiza, in July in 2016 as I mentioned before.
I share here a video with the whole experience, before, during and after. I’ve been able to understand and process what has happened, changed and contributed, from the day I took it until several days later.
Bufo Alvarius Toad life experience
Here’s the testimonial after the first ceremony…
Motivations behind “the experiment.”
I guess they’re very different and personal and may vary from one person to another. Some seek the cure to their addiction or depression, others to traumas or diseases. Others look for questions, answers, attempt to travel inside or outside. According to what I have observed in the people I know who have tried it, healing, expansion, and research are the most common causes. Mine was to continue experimenting.
The change occurs at every level, physical, mental and emotional. In my case, I felt something more physical and emotional, perhaps because of the strong resistance of my mind. That was (and is) why one of my motivations – to see what could be awakened inside of me, another was (and is) to know what blockages I could unlock. Would it increase my skills? Would I know about a new gift? And would memories that I don’t remember in me?
I saw in the Sapo Bufo Alvaius toad – 5MeO-DMT a wonderful tool to continue my journey. That search to find myself, what I don’t understand, what surpasses me, what could separate me from being who I am, to find myself on a much deeper spiritual level. The video explains all this and more.
What you look for, looks for you. What you stop looking for, ends up finding you.
A second encounter with the Bufo Alvarius toad
In July 2017 I finally had a second round of 5MeO-DMT Bufo Alvarius, known as the Awakening Toad. It was in Nueva Andalucía – Marbella, alongside Aitor Contreras. We’d just landed from Ibiza, and it was well into the night. It was the ideal moment. Although there were previous complications that made us think that maybe it wasn’t the right moment.
As I explained above, I first did it in July 2016, which didn’t become a complete experience due to the resistance (ego) that I opposed while taking the little compound 5MeO-DMT. To all that Kike, the shaman, couldn’t offer me a second round, because I was the last of the participants of the previous day that he performed ceremonies in Ibiza. Then I felt I would try a second time to see if I could experience the full effects of this transformational experience. There would be a second time, sure. I waited unhurriedly and patiently for the time to come when it had to come. Then it happened.
On that occasion, it was entirely different, as soon as I took the 5MeO-DMT Bufo Alvarius I let myself go. I gave myself to the experience, whatever it was. I opened my arms and allowed it to enter me and do what it had to do. In total, I was navigating in my subconscious for 18 minutes and another 16 I was in a trance.
On the other hand, it was Aitor’s it first experience; I wanted him to be able to experience it and try it for himself. These are the kind of incentives that we promote at IG. Aitor’s reaction was different from mine, healthy, as no two people are identically the same.
5MeO-DMT Bufo Alvarius 2nd round – the experience
I explain in a video the impressions before, during and after this ultra-vital experience. The only difference is that in this case the video was recorded two days after the ceremony. And it also has the participation and testimony of Aitor Contreras.
These kinds of sacred experiences are, for me, experiments that help me improve high performance and redesign my lifestyle. I love to explore the most unexplored and travel to the deepest.
Photo credit: Evolve and Ascend.